-Let me be empty and weightless and maybe i'll find some peace tonight

I've became a master at faking smiles, and hiding things from people,
It's became easy to lie,
And it doesn't matter to who,
Everybody thinks I'm fine,
Because nobody can see past this fake smile and all these twisted lies.

I never realized how much I missed my uncle until last night when I lit my luminaria.
I never realized how much I wanted other uncle to get better until last night when I also lit one for him
I'm glad I was with my friends last night so i had somebody there while i was breaking down
but we all where
We all walked the track together after that holding hands or having our arms around each other
this is when i realized who my real bestfriends are
 
Im going to start crying again.
 
R.I.P Uncle Danny
Uncle Bill please stay strong
<3
I love you guys.
-Angelika

Whatever,
Blahh,
I don't even know anymore,
-Angelika

It's crazy that I thought I actually meant something,
Oh well,
Pm me,
-Angelika

I fucking hate it here,
I just want to leave,
I hate my parents,
I just want to die..
Because everybody would be much better off without me,
-Angelika

If I could say everything I needed to say on here
And not seem crazy I would,
Cameron is the only person who really kinda knows what's going on in my life,
Just huh
*kicks wall*
I don't know what to do anymore.
-Angelika